{"id":1008,"date":"2019-05-11T15:10:20","date_gmt":"2019-05-11T22:10:20","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/styledahlia.com\/staging\/1660\/?p=1008"},"modified":"2019-05-11T15:08:30","modified_gmt":"2019-05-11T22:08:30","slug":"mothers-day-when-you-no-longer-have-a-mom","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/styledahlia.com\/staging\/1660\/mothers-day-when-you-no-longer-have-a-mom\/","title":{"rendered":"Mother’s Day When You No Longer Have a Mom"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Thoughts from a Mom who Doesn’t Have a Mom Anymore<\/h2>\n

Mother\u2019s Day is upon us. For many it is a time to celebrate their wonderful moms or to rejoice in the honor of being a mom. But, for many Mother\u2019s Day is a painful reminder of love and loss. It can also be both, as is the case for me.<\/p>\n

My mom passed away almost six years ago. There is no other day of the year, I am more acutely aware of her absence than on Mother\u2019s Day. That is not to say I don\u2019t think of her often and wish I could call her other days of the year. The fact is that Facebook and Instagram fill with photos of generations of moms all together celebrating. And though I know you can\u2019t compare people\u2019s FB lives to your real life, on Mother\u2019s Day the disparity is just too real and painful.<\/p>\n

The reality is that my relationship never looked like a Hallmark card. My mother and I were oil and water. We didn\u2019t gel. Now that she is gone, I morn not only in her absence but in the fact, I will never have that relationship I so craved growing up.<\/p>\n

Life is funny. For many years, I didn\u2019t want kids because of my strained relationship with my mom. I rejected motherhood as a codependent, needy mess. But, by the time I met and married the man of my dreams, I was gung-ho and ready to be a mom and our beautiful daughter was born just 17 days after our one-year anniversary. Two and a half years later our son joined the family and we because a family of four. My mom with my kids in photos below.<\/p>\n